A gradual dawning
I see a gradual dawning of the light, and in light of my already in motion fingers I shall continue typing…
Yeah man! I missed the days of entering blog entries for quite a while now. I guess one could blame it on writer’s block, lack of inspiration, lack of fingers, lack of eyeballs, lack of brains.. and the list goes on.. and off.
Its nice to be chauffered around, its nice to have michi around, because she has a car. I recall the day we went ice skating at sunway pyramid. With michi unable to fetch, I did a little on9 research about the KTM rail paths as well as the general road map to the pyramids from subang jaya station. A little planning certainly goes a long way, I learnt that the hard way… by savoring the fruits of not planning.. wahaha.. anyway, we eventually managed to get to the pyramids, and were most enthusiastic to get on the ice. Once on the ice however, a part of me suddenly became enthusiastic to get OFF the ice. seriously though, the ice is slippery, and these Neanderthal shoes with butterknifes (ok lar blunt knifes) sticking out of them certainly aren’t making things any easier. Every micro second on the ice for me was filled with silent gasps and adrenalin surges all through the nervous system. I think this justifies ice skating as a form of extreme sport. Because it is extremely nerve wrenching trying not to fall, extremely uncomfortable on the legs, and extremely silly to look at. Yet despite all this, we spent 2 whole crazy hours wadding like meerkats on steroids carving our mark on the ice, which looks like an O.
Amazingly michi woke up and drove all the way here to join us. Later we had bowling and that was where I discovered that whoever created bowling longkangs must really hate me. Anyway the thing to note here is that I burnt about a hundred ringgit that day, and michi really came all out of the way to entertain us, take us to dinner and fetch us home to our doorstep.
On a side note, I participated in the public speaking workshop & competition organised by the star. That’s when I realized, how much I have rusted especially in the speech department. An eye opening experience it certainly was, getting to know many other people, and expanding perceptions…. as the competition date drew near, stress levels reached an all time high… my brain felt like a nuclear disaster, or a worn out clutch plate from too much engine roaring… ew.. burnt rubber… burnt brain… It was so stressful that for several days I just sat in front of my notebook, trying to evolve into creative… without success… without even bathing!… finally I decided to give up, 2 days b4 the competition… and with a sigh of relief I entered the bathroom and came out fresh enough for bed… having experienced several sleepness nights b4hand… this is perpetual bliss… the next morning however, I felt really bad about not competing.. can’t really explain why, so I decided to participate in the competition again, finishing my 2 speeches, memorizing them like crazy that day, and went for the competition the next in full light of grim loser’s scythe of prepare-for-trouble.. aikz… when the time finally came, I just breezed through without hope… as usual, made some new friends… and recently I realized that when doing impromptu speeches, the better method of figuring out what to say next is not to ponder on what to say next, but to reflect on what was the last sentece spat out of the mouth and try to wire something in the brain to it. With this method, one can easily blabber about anything for a very long time. On a side note, I really enjoyed listening to some really good speeches, vowing to be better next year, enjoyed the food prepared at the event, and signed up to watch the finals at eastin hotel.
I suddenly realized I like engineering. IN fact, as a child, I’ve always wanted to be an inventor, even joining a kiddy inventor’s club in primary school.. wahaha.. it was only recently that I discovered that engineering is the field to go if inventing is my piece of pie… so I decided to put it as my second choice next to medicine.. engineering… and being a day dreaming fan, I’ve recently conjured an idea of making neuron connections.. making connections between dreams and ambitions… like, if I like to be an actor and a doctor and a musician and an inventor, can’t I be a doctor who runs a special hospital full of musicians and has his own TV show entertaining, helping people as well as encouraging the connection of great ideas from great minds? wahaha.. a dream.. but if I’m not thinking about myself I’ll be thinking about inventions… companies… like, what will happen if INTEL decided to join forces with COLGATE? imagine the possibilities! of having computer interfaces in hygiene related stuff to ensure that our mouths are really clean and not just rotten with minty breath after brushing.. or what about ALTEC LANSING joining with LORENZO? imagine, cushions that play relaxing music… and speakers that add comfort, design, and style to any household… the possibilities are endless!!! ( Did I ever tell u I’m a star trek fan? wahahahaha)
13th March 2006
It is the day of infamy to some, end of the world to others, and SPM RESULT DAY TO MANY.
Or at the least, many people I know… wajaja
Anyway seriously, after the public speaking event, I’ve learnt that its not worth being stressful about anything. Whatever reality ditches as us, we should just accept it as it is, not try to justify it, rationalize it to prove our worth, or try to ask why me? It really is best to just accept… for until we have accepted correct data of a terrain, how well will we be able to traverse it? So in other words, I expected the gravest of result… I sort of hoped for it, because having never enjoyed bad results ALL MY LIFE… I think this is the kind of slap in the face that would really motivate me to work hard… but who would’ve guessed…
It was about 10.30am at school. Most of my friends are out at the local coffee shop, I didn’t feel like joining them because oh well, I prefer to spend some time with my ex-juniors. So sneakily I opened the hall piano and started running my fingers all over it, and such a sad tune it played that day… when suddenly my handphone rang… it was LEEKEE.
omgosh… I got straight A ar… lolz… totally did not expect… because well, as I have mentioned earlier, blablabla yada yada.. I was really quite the PATHETIC sight during the SPM examinations… panda eyes… super procrastination mode kicked into high gear in my brain… personal self esteem problems… studying alone in the canteen… at home I still have the tenacioty to play BEETHOVEN’s PATHETIC SONATA RONDO FINALE ALL OVER AND OVER AGAIN… if that’s not pathetic I don’t know what is… so yea.. that was my situation… life certainly is full of surprises… it seems only 2 people from my school got straight As… well, although many other schools do better, at least I did make a tiny school record… of being the smk cheras head prefect who scored 11As in spm… indeed something head prefects from my school rarely accomplish… well, that would be something for the juniors to chew on wouldn’t it… wajaja.
well, many people congratulated me after the results were announced… I realize that most of them don’t understand no matter how I tell them that I was expecting only 1 A-They think I’m being cocky.. oh well, since no one understands I eventually decided not to talk about the issue and just accept their good wishes…
Applying for scholarships can be pretty stressful.. gee, currently I"m only eyeing for JPA.. petronas and khazanah are crap.. second choice would be Universiti Malaya.. and third would be form 6… either way, the future is beginnning now.
I think that’s enough of reflections… today I went for my driving test… urgh the URGHness…
It seems that only a few people from my driving school are going for the test today.. started off with a LONG wait.. and then bukit… failed the first try.. YIKES… nervous nervous nervous.. badger badger badger badger badger.. mushroom mushroom.. ack ack ack… second try.. ALMOST FAIL, I stopped too early, then while tester wasn’t looking, quickly rammed the accelerator to go up a bit… LOL luckily tester was lenient… WAHAHA.. that passed without commotion… parking and 3 point no problem… and then.. it was THE LONG STUPID WAIT…. the worst part of it all was to be seated under a crowded shed, with people smoking all around you… choking you to death…after about 5 hours waiting… at about 4 o’ clock, I was finally summoned, and the next thing that happened was the most stupid driving test ever… the tester kept pestering me to be faster and faster… and once we were out in the main road, straightaway commanded me to make a U turn back to the driving institute….. it was just so… shocking… good thing I pass though, now I can drive around my house in circles.. whee~
